So annoying

How you get over things when you want to stay upset. I guess I'll have some more upset times but its not as bad as grief. Its kind of weirdly like nothing, just a bit sore around the shoulder. I've read lots about idiopathic heart block now but really its a bit of a mystery of a disease. I kept hoping it would just go back to normal but not likely. Best thing has been the pacemaker club you can post questions and get some good answers, if not always what I want to hear. The people are really nice and they give you hope that you will come to terms with it. I hate it but really there isnt any choice no other treatment. 

Did some gardening wiifit took the dog for a walk and made a nice dinner. Sometimes I remember how difficult doing things was before. I'd go upstairs and want to lie down on the bed. Its good to just do stuff without the awful tiredness. I feel like I could make myself sick or get better.