Australia day

It hot and steamy but starting to rain. We are going to oil the decking on the verandas if it doesnt rain too much, well maybe we will just get them ready. The painters are finished did a very good job, the boards are portland stone which is a creamy beige and the trim is white and royal blue, it looks very fresh and nice. We had black on the boards on the western side i thought they were from mould but the painters said no sunburnt. It took me four years to pick a colour scheme we had bits of different colours all over the house as I tried out different ones. This looks really nice. 

They have stopped the bed restrictions at work while the union negotiates with the government  over  nurse ratios but we are all annoyed as they didnt tell us what the governments offer is. Everyone I think is sick of government by creepy little backroom deals.  So thats as far as its got. I had two reasonable shifts as I only had 4 then 5 mothers to look after, a lot of caesars through still. 

Golf is back tomorrow I am getting nervous about it, its so hot and humid. Not doing much just hanging in the pool and gardening and little trips for iced coffee at the beach. Good news sisters house got rented finally to 2 dev delayed men. We think it will be funny as I think it will annoyed the next door neighbor who  has been using the bins.  She seemed to think we were unreasonable asking them not to and has gone right on doing it. She looked like a NIMBY to me (not in my back yard). I thought would I mind retarded men next door no at least they would be friendly. We have students both sides and of course being older we are invisible!

Blue skies

I feel more cheerful as husbands family have left town and I avoided most of the circus, brother who lives near us but whom we never see is attempting marriage again. To be fair she seems a nice person unlike the mad first one. I was working so missed the party and didnt go to lunch with them. He told them I was sick I think. The kids went and I'm glad they have a relationship with them. He says why am I so bitter about them and all the stuff I'm upset about was long ago and they dont think about you like you do about them. Thats the point through and it makes me teary I thought his sister might be like another sister, not as close as a sister but more than a friend, and his mother the same not as much as your mother but close. My children got the thin end of any attention from them, when she lived less than an hour away she visited for a couple of hours a week before christmas and that was it. We've had christmas once in 25 years with them and she spent that whole of dinner saying we had ruined it by being late. Husband says we've been invited but I wanted to go to my parents, but thats not true. 

Anyway I have to get over this they make me feel really bad. The only one we saw was his mother took her out to lunch a couple of times. He told me he said to her dont ask about the pacemaker so the bitch whispers to me how is the pacemaker, making sure he doesnt hear stupid woman, its not him who doesnt want to talk about it its me. Same old thing they cant treat you as normal you're forever that person with the pacemaker. I havent heard back from uni they probably put it in a bin. I stopped taking the stupid statins who wants more of this stupid life. 

back to work

Dreading it because heard they had closed beds in general but not midwifery so I thought we would have lots of general patients and be throwing mid patients out the door. It was a really bad evening as we had 8 new caesars who keep coming till 1030 pm but at least we were not to take any general patients. a union guy came round to ask how it was going he said are the extra beds open, I said they are always open and we spend half our shifts looking for staff they should open them permanently. Very worried about the last C/S she'd bleed in recovery I thought she'd bleed again heavy loss, you worry about the gap at change of shift but good girl on nights took over and looked after her, she did bleed but doc there and they took care of her. My second shift I was still worried about her hope she went ok. They are starting the 10 hr night duty which I've said I wont do but I dont think that will hold, my nominated retirement age is coming soon so.....

Its been raining and raining and of course we are getting the house painted which it badly needs nice painter, good tradesman are a joy. Sometimes I wish I had just learned to fix watches or something like that people are so much more a problem, and really nursing is everybody's dog of a job. wet docs/social workers/physios etc all giving you lectures and I think oh I probably changed your nappy you fool. There is no respect for nurses. 

But then I do like some of the girls on the shift nice people no pretensions actually working on a mid ward you have to have no pretensions you are just the bottom of the barrel. It goes like this in a hospital the respect ladder at the top the in charge people (in their own minds anyhow), ICU, A&E OT and recovery nurses, clinic nurses (respected cause they've got themselves cushy jobs), birthing unit midwives, general ward nurses and finally mid ward nurses. At least we've got the cleaning staff sort of under us and at the bottom patients, unless their a celeb but then they dont come to our hospital or some in-charges relation. I said the other day at work that this might be the worst hospital in Australia sadly no one disagreed with me. 

I am catching mozzies to feed to the fish (Buddy) he loves them. He is in a small vase which I was feeling guilty about but our friend came up from Melbourne and they own a pet shop she said those fish breed in cow pats in Thailand so they like small spaces. He loves mozzies. 

New years day

Very sunburnt morning at the beach iced coffee at the kiosk and the rest of the day by the pool reading the papers and gardening and swimming. Relaxing. Enjoying body boarding a lot it is lovely in the sea. Resolution make a million this year, bought the lotto tickets. Forgot it was NY's eve yesterday ha maybe too relaxed.