Time

to turn the heater on I thought then I looked and it was on already its really cold, maybe the back door is open. Its sunday went to town to buy daughter 2 interview clothes and teaching clothes. Only 1 more semester and she is finished her course. 

We have bought ferrets flat. I have an idea to make it a B&B except a distant 2 streets away from us one. Husband hates the idea of strangers in the house, not yet reconciled to childrens presence. I think it would go well there is not much short term accommodation in this town. I am reading a book about running them. I always have this reflex thought  that I couldnt do that, but it would give me a little business. We have a fair bit of furniture. 

Sickie friday, bad me

Haha nice two days of golf and we came fourth exciting. Playing some nice shots. The weather cleared up so we were lucky. I called in sick for work and glad I did as my feet were really sore it was hard going pushing through the damp grass. It was team event and I played with a girl who is really fun and relaxing to play with so once we got our strategy we went good on the second nine. I think when you play with someone who is encouraging even when you dont hit a good shot it makes you play a lot better. 

The sun has moved to the north a long way, you forget to notice the seasons and that life of nature in all the human stuff. We have lost so much connection. I really enjoy sitting on the veranda watching the birds. 

 

Come on sack me

They will be talking about me my bad temper at work. Its deliberate through I am tired of working with some of the slack self promoters in that place. Whole reports consist of what they didnt do and could you do it. Sometimes you want to ask them what exactly did you do all day. Anyway I unloaded on one of them. Then the girl in charge tells me she is giving me the new lady, there wont be anything to do she says. I said no I'm not having her, I've got too much to do now, she thinks I'm kidding and makes a joke, I said I am serious I am not looking after 6 people when 2 of you have 4. Oh she says I'll take her, good I said. Then she is still trying to off load her on me with comments like I haven't got to that lady yet while she is sitting at the desk. I don't reply. You start to realize there are two brands of nurse the guilty (me) who (used to) run all shift and feel they never do enough and the exploiters who use your guilt to off load their work. When I was younger I didn't worry about it just ran around but too old to do extra. 

She finally went to check on her and the girl was bleeding so needed a catheter in and an IV with synto, the second post partum hemorrhage that shift. 

One of the other ladies I was looking after was waiting to go to theatre, complications after a cancer op I wanted to say to her why didnt you go back to your original surgeon not to our crap hospital but you cant say that. Pity. 

I was angry too before because it occurred to me that we were never going to be a midwifery ward again unless we are flat out with new mums we are going to be the overflow ward for the rest of the hospital and every-time we have an empty bed an ADON will be trawling to place for someone to dump on us. That the patients are getting sicker and more worrying and we  dont have the experience, equipment or medical back up to deal with them. 

I said that to one of the girls she said no it will get busy with babies again and then we wont be able to take generals. I said I think they will be sending the Mums home quicker, they've been off studying another hospital with a faster turn around than ours????? we cant figure how they do that unless they just show them the door of the ward and push them out on the street.

 

Cruising

We are google cruising all around the world fabulous, we saw a program about the Queen Mary 2 which was really interesting, brave guy to build it. Oh beautiful parrot in the trees green and red/orange King Parrot I think all the birds look big and healthy this year all the rain lots of food around. The bower birds have been in the front garden all morning. I have got my sister on to it now, good fun thinking of all the places you could go to in style and comfort. 

Back to work in a minute oh well on the home stretch and I might have a sickie to look forward to this week if I'm too tired after golf. So many people have been off the last two weeks fed up or kids ill or themselves ill. I dont think we can really be called a mid ward any more more once was midwifery. I think in our heads we were just thinking all this general patients on the ward were temporary but now we are realizing it is the mothers that are temporary. The heavies went of to another hospital that kicks out mother quicker than ours to see how they do it (prob by falsifying the departure times that how we do it!) so we can throw them out faster too, encouraging. 

stop all this weeping swallow your pride you wont die its not poison

Good advice to all. There is enough genuine grief isnt there without all this rubbish we do. Dealing with the anxious child again, no not me for once through you can see your reflection. 

Diverticulitis, pancreatitis, and fertility and round the world cruises

Nutty  two shifts at work, half mid patents and half general you feel like you are going in two different directions. Older ladies with hover children and new mums with hover mothers. So much time spent on explaining to relations, diahorrea vomiting new mum tears antibiotics. Trying to figure what is normal course for those diseases doctors wandering in without telling you they have been, or not coming because they dont know they have a patient on the mid ward 

Balmy sunday

I wish I didnt have to go to work its such a beautiful day and I would be happy in the garden. I am going to buy one of those cutters on poles, there is too much trimming to do by hand. I bought a chain saw but I was too frightened to use it. One of the ladies from aquarobics is going on a 3 month cruise around the world that would be fabulous, I hate flying so exhausting cramped into those seats for hours, 4 hours is about all I can stand of it. I wanted to be an air hostess once but after a long flight I couldn't even get on a plane for a couple of years. She said it will cost them 35 thou each I suppose with the side trips but I love the idea of it Sydney to Sydney no cooking only one packing and unpacking. We looked it up I said we should start a running away to sea fund and do some test runs to NZ to see if we like it. Cruising is really back in fashion. Horrible air trips I think. 

Signing the papers for the unit tomorrow unless they try to gazump us, bid up the price, he said he wouldn't but real estate.... Hope it goes smooth. I'm thinking of running a sort of b and b or more a serviced apartment. Short term accommodation is hard to find around here, anyway I'll talk to our property manager about it. We could furnish it with mums stuff which is stuffed into our house because I thought I should keep it for my sister who said I dont want any of that junk. 

Good news too the girl at work (well is 50's a girl. maybe not) is buying the other unit she knocked on doors to check the rent of the other units and they were good so I'm pleased for her. I hope it goes ahead.