We had two quiet nights at work which was nice we all talked about things all night. One of the girls mother had died suddenly 8 years ago I asked if she felt better after a while but she said not really she still wants to tell her mother things but it did get a bit better. I think I am just going to have to get used to feeling crummy sometimes. Its been busy for so long at work that we never get any time to debrief about things. We save those bastards in management a lot of money in stress leave and nervous breakdowns by the simple act of tea and lunchbreaks but they didnt even build tea rooms on the wards because someone complained to some politician about seeing nurses eating on a ward.
I once worked at Sydney Hospital, next door in parliament house they were building an indoor swimming pool, in the hospital the showers and toilets were on an open veranda it was very cold in winter. That was a life lesson, but amongst nurses fav sayings is "what comes around goes around." Not profound but helpful in putting up with difficult people, especially the "do you know who I am do you know who I am."
Two girls at work have had granddaughters born last couple of weeks, I have grandmother envy. They say it is better than having your own. It is really exciting. I remember when their kids were born. Been there too long.
I am really depressed sometimes about spending most of my working life in the nasty hospital but maybe being in a crap place trying to do good is more valuable than being in a good place where it is easy to do good. I think it is probably better in a good place after a while everyone gets infected with the creepiness. Are there any good hospitals I wonder. I know some people have good experiences in hospitals but I just find nursing totally stressful.