Played big golf today, the 18 hole comp, played some good holes, nice company, Very hot windy and some rain but beautiful big seas and big clouds building up it was very dramatic. Lots of nice birds little blue wrens, a little hawk but I dont know what kind. I dont know why I keep watching birds. My mother was a bird watcher so it is like seeing through her eyes, part of missing her. It is not as bad as it was, 7 1/2 weeks I think I knew to the day till this week but I am not counting the days so much. The scorcerers say you should turn to face the oncoming time not look back at the past. You can see that that is freedom because the future is does not burden you the way the past does. They say you must go to the place in your feelings of no pity. If you think of the look in a wild animals eyes that is like the place of no pity, in a world where death is stalking us there is no time for regrets.
I am trying to play golf like that. Sounds kind of petty but either everything we do matters or nothing does.
Doing a lot of gardening being in a garden is always soothing. I like little plants but I have so many trees they get a bit lost I would like to plant a fruit forrest