The seminar on bereavement

One of the birthing unit staff came around to say she'd organized a seminar on bereavement, and would more of the ward staff go, we just looked at her. I dont want to count how many of us have lost people in the last couple of years. I thought she meant at first to deal with our own grief but she meant helping the mothers with their loss of babies. Its funny isnt that you feel way less capable of counseling anyone after you have felt grief than you did before. Well I'm not really keen on counseling or the whole synthetic friendship movement. I think a dog or a cat or a friend is a better option. Not to give up on it entirely and cognitive therapy seems quite effective. I worry about the chemical storm of anti depressants we see mothers taking at work and the effects on baby brains.

Had a crappy weird feeling all day yesterday, all my glands up maybe from the flu vac also tummy upset, took some panadiene and dont feel too bad today. No there are no effects from the vaccine. Better go playing tennis thro it looks like rain