Blue skies

I feel more cheerful as husbands family have left town and I avoided most of the circus, brother who lives near us but whom we never see is attempting marriage again. To be fair she seems a nice person unlike the mad first one. I was working so missed the party and didnt go to lunch with them. He told them I was sick I think. The kids went and I'm glad they have a relationship with them. He says why am I so bitter about them and all the stuff I'm upset about was long ago and they dont think about you like you do about them. Thats the point through and it makes me teary I thought his sister might be like another sister, not as close as a sister but more than a friend, and his mother the same not as much as your mother but close. My children got the thin end of any attention from them, when she lived less than an hour away she visited for a couple of hours a week before christmas and that was it. We've had christmas once in 25 years with them and she spent that whole of dinner saying we had ruined it by being late. Husband says we've been invited but I wanted to go to my parents, but thats not true. 

Anyway I have to get over this they make me feel really bad. The only one we saw was his mother took her out to lunch a couple of times. He told me he said to her dont ask about the pacemaker so the bitch whispers to me how is the pacemaker, making sure he doesnt hear stupid woman, its not him who doesnt want to talk about it its me. Same old thing they cant treat you as normal you're forever that person with the pacemaker. I havent heard back from uni they probably put it in a bin. I stopped taking the stupid statins who wants more of this stupid life.