back to work

Dreading it because heard they had closed beds in general but not midwifery so I thought we would have lots of general patients and be throwing mid patients out the door. It was a really bad evening as we had 8 new caesars who keep coming till 1030 pm but at least we were not to take any general patients. a union guy came round to ask how it was going he said are the extra beds open, I said they are always open and we spend half our shifts looking for staff they should open them permanently. Very worried about the last C/S she'd bleed in recovery I thought she'd bleed again heavy loss, you worry about the gap at change of shift but good girl on nights took over and looked after her, she did bleed but doc there and they took care of her. My second shift I was still worried about her hope she went ok. They are starting the 10 hr night duty which I've said I wont do but I dont think that will hold, my nominated retirement age is coming soon so.....

Its been raining and raining and of course we are getting the house painted which it badly needs nice painter, good tradesman are a joy. Sometimes I wish I had just learned to fix watches or something like that people are so much more a problem, and really nursing is everybody's dog of a job. wet docs/social workers/physios etc all giving you lectures and I think oh I probably changed your nappy you fool. There is no respect for nurses. 

But then I do like some of the girls on the shift nice people no pretensions actually working on a mid ward you have to have no pretensions you are just the bottom of the barrel. It goes like this in a hospital the respect ladder at the top the in charge people (in their own minds anyhow), ICU, A&E OT and recovery nurses, clinic nurses (respected cause they've got themselves cushy jobs), birthing unit midwives, general ward nurses and finally mid ward nurses. At least we've got the cleaning staff sort of under us and at the bottom patients, unless their a celeb but then they dont come to our hospital or some in-charges relation. I said the other day at work that this might be the worst hospital in Australia sadly no one disagreed with me. 

I am catching mozzies to feed to the fish (Buddy) he loves them. He is in a small vase which I was feeling guilty about but our friend came up from Melbourne and they own a pet shop she said those fish breed in cow pats in Thailand so they like small spaces. He loves mozzies.