Mad week got sent on a study day I am sure Num only sends me cause she thinks i dont like them, which is true really I do like learning new things but 20 fire lectures gets a bit much. I thought it was obstetic emergencies but there was one on communication and one on something else. I wasnt down for the something else and it ran for 3 days, the communication one only went for 2 hours. There was only one girl from my ward there and she said she had a patient load and had to go back to the ward. I said did they say anything about me she said no so I just went to that lecture and went home. Nuts only rostered one day this week now so I dont know if she will dock my pay or not what a mess. I am not asking her cause i dont like talking to her, the communication lecture didnt stick.
I am feeling very restless. Would like to do contract nursing work but youngest still at school, she is talking about a year in England next year maybe I could go too, oh but those awful flights!
Feeling very upset and missing my mother a lot especially as its mothers day and people keep saying happy mothers day to me and I think I'm going to cry. So I've decided sleeping all the time and doing nothing wasnt working so I am going to stay busy instead, make lists and do things, that might be a better way through grief. We have to paint the house and I think I have finally decided on the colours. So that s my job of the week getting some sample pots and trying the colours. Lots of people our age are selling their houses and moving into units near the beach but our daughters are still home and 4 bedroom units are very expensive. Sometimes I think I would like to live at the beach and other times I like the peace and quiet of our house.
Did some gardening yesterday I have to do a lot of trimming like Japanese gardens, things are very overgrown and the days are short so its hard to get much done.
After another nutty shift busy as always. Trying to find staff for the morning because they are going to be over numbers again. The trouble is so many of the shifts are being filled by people from the casual pool that they are being asked to do more than they want, or they are already working or they have other commitments, jobs or children. One of the casuals this evening pointed out a couple of days ago the whole shift was casuals. She has been working there 18 months and asked twice about a permanent job but no reply. I rang 12 or so people but no one could do it couldnt even ring the usual 20 cause so many already working and we just dont have people. Told them I couldnt find anyone.
Between doing that trying to get a caesar baby to feed not very interested then the mum mentioned she had her nipples pierced before would that affect the feeding. I thought it wouldnt once her milk is in but the small amount of colostrum might be slowed esp if she'd had some scaring from infections. I noticed with other girls the problems some have with getting belly button rings to heal I wondered if nipple rings were as difficult. Wont know the end of that story as i only worked the one shift. Always something new to deal with I wish she had told me earlier in the shift I could have checked it out more. We once had a terrible time trying to get a labial ring out before an emergency caesar had to leave it in the end and hope the diathermy didnt fry her. Take the rings out before I wish!