Sometimes I think I am going to get it all together, make that list, do those things, be in order but days never turn out like that I will learn to download photos thru, one day. Today I had a different day planned but you have to be more organic. Was going to see my mother after the gym but my friends father has had a stroke so I went to have lunch with her at the hospital. She has been very good to me with my mother. There are times in your life when friendships make a big difference. With my first baby I was very tired, she never slept and mothering brought up lots of issues about my own childhood, I suppose I had postnatal depression but that was not acknowledged much then. A girl I worked with, who I hadn't really known outside work rang me and dragged me off to a mothers group she was going to. I think it really saved me from a much worse time and taught me to reach out to people more. After all whats the worse can happen they reject you and the best that you gain a new friend. Not that I'm very good at it but at least I try with friends to be there for them. I think its impossible to bring up children without help and it is amazing how you are just about to despair with all you have to do when another mother will offer to help.
The other day I was lying in the pool counting all the trees in my little rainforest they are: a macadamia nut tree, a white cedar, two bangalow palms, a cabbage tree palm, a rainforest tree I dont know, an illawarra flame tree, a silky oak [grevilla robusta]
a japanese maple, a cane palm, still little native frangipani {hasnt got room to grow yet} a camilla struggling on. Our old neighbours told us there was a spring in that corner of the yard I think I believe it for all these trees to thrive right through the drought with no watering only a bin for mulch making. There is also a white banksia rose and a wisteria growing up the silky oak. A garden designer Sorenson liked to put silky oaks with jacarandas and illawarra flame trees then you would have magical years when they all flowered together so you would have yellow with purple and red. I've never seen that done anywhere else but it should be.