Should be in bed its late and I'm fooling around on the computer. Want to go to gym in the morning but I'll be sleeping if I dont go soon . Sometimes I feel like my whole world has turned upside down. On saturdays I would take the paper to my mothers and we'd have tea and read the news. Thats all gone now she is in the nursing home. I wish that she had agreed to move in with us before but she didn't want to and now we couldnt live with her or look after her properly she is awake all night calling out and getting out of bed. They are going to try her on more sleeping tablets. Often I feel like there is an abyss of sadness but I can't go there anymore life is too brief and it doesnt change anything.
sleep well.