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I am still trying to get my head around this pacemaker thing yesterday I decided that I was fine my heart was better and the pacemaker didnt need to work at all. I liked that idea it could sit there but it wasnt really necessary. You get some really funny thoughts and now I feel like I'm going to be J with the pacemaker forever. At first I was compulsively telling everyone they would say how are you and I would tell them, then the other day someone asked and I said good which I am. I thought I dont have to tell everyone.

I know more about the heart in 2 weeks than I've ever known and I am madly researching why. I thought I had it with a vagal response but my husband pointed out the error in that.  I need the medical library at work. 

We are going to Canberra to see  the art exhibition next week VanGogh and others. On monday I can take the dressing off. Wonder if I can go for a swim. Have to see what the wound looks like. There is an online pacemaker club mostly USA which I was reading. It was sort of helpful.  I miss golf a lot and body boarding and swimming. I'm glad I can still do those things in a little while.