Felt hot and uck so did my temp 37.6 told one of the girls take a panadol they said, I said dont you mean go home, no you cant go home. Said to another nurse I was sick take a panadol she said didnt bother asking the 3rd of my co's just took the panadol. Had pretty quiet night really then came home and watched Sydney fireworks on TV thru it doesnt look as good as in real life. You also keep thinking well thats a few hip replacements up in smoke, but no one is allowed to spoil the party. Watched some young guys walking up the street very drunk or drugged. You wonder about humans and their predilection for drug taking.
I feel kind of detached about everything nursing hardly means what it used to mean to me, I think the voyage out of grief is as difficult as the voyage in, part of you doesnt want to come back to life because you have to leave people behind.
Whats hard is to drop all the rubbish in your life to be free fluid and unpredictable, especially as you get older,
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hey JMG,
hope u free better soon might just be another low in our long long nursing life...but hey the sun rise the clouds will clear and everything will be alright...
you can drop all your 'rubbish' anytime love..depends on how much you want to drop as you go along...hard perphaps to be of free mind but hey we are still all learning to let go...l still do have so much desire and maybe that's why l am still so miserable!! haha
hope u free better soon!
cheers,
Bone_collector
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